Wednesday, May 19, 2010


i debated posting this entry. i did. but in the end, even though my heart is breaking over this, i felt like it would be cathartic for me to publish it.

my mom called me on monday night to tell me that our family dog, lola, died suddenly and unexpectedly yesterday with my brother, patrick, at the vet. i had just seen lola last weekend; my mom said she was fine on sunday; i have pictures on my phone of her sitting on my lap and in her favorite chair. i can't even wrap my mind around the fact that she's gone. the vet said it was complications from an autoimmune disease and internal bleeding.

i am such an animal person, and i loved lola more than i loved almost anyone. she was a member of our family. i was the one who brought her home; she slept on my bed with me when i visited my parents. when i moved to sarasota, and couldn't bring her with me, my parents--especially my mom--took over caring for her, and i know this is so hard on them, too.

i cried my eyes out on monday night. i'm still crying today. but i'm glad lola didn't suffer.

it's just...i'm going to miss her so much.

{ image of my sweet lola, a few years ago, by me }


  1. So, so sorry. Been there. Hope you feel better soon. xoxoxox

  2. awe :(
    I'm so sad for you! sending you lots of love!

  3. Oh, Megan...I'm so sorry. What a loss. I'm sending you good thoughts.

  4. I'm so sorry, Megan... sending you a hug.

  5. i tell this story all the time. when my grandpa died, i asked my mom if i could stay home from school. "no, honey." but when our family dog jellybean died? i got to stay home from school. and we cried all darn day.

    i get this. i do. and i'm sorry. xoxo.

  6. Hi - ohh so sorry to hear that. She looks like a best friend kind of I am sure it's awfully hard. Louise x

  7. OMG so so sorry to hear about your dog. I completly understand your heartbreak... hope you are ok!

  8. I'm so sorry, Megan. I teared up reading this. I'm also sorry I'm so late in hearing the news (I'm working on keeping up with friends blogs as I have a tendency to be absorbed in my own)

    Hope you're doing ok :)