lola.

i debated posting this entry. i did. but in the end, even though my heart is breaking over this, i felt like it would be cathartic for me to publish it.

my mom called me on monday night to tell me that our family dog, lola, died suddenly and unexpectedly yesterday with my brother, patrick, at the vet. i had just seen lola last weekend; my mom said she was fine on sunday; i have pictures on my phone of her sitting on my lap and in her favorite chair. i can't even wrap my mind around the fact that she's gone. the vet said it was complications from an autoimmune disease and internal bleeding.

i am such an animal person, and i loved lola more than i loved almost anyone. she was a member of our family. i was the one who brought her home; she slept on my bed with me when i visited my parents. when i moved to sarasota, and couldn't bring her with me, my parents--especially my mom--took over caring for her, and i know this is so hard on them, too.

i cried my eyes out on monday night. i'm still crying today. but i'm glad lola didn't suffer.

it's just...i'm going to miss her so much.

{ image of my sweet lola, a few years ago, by me }